We just got back from the cabin where we didn’t do a lot.   On Sunday we drove into Regina for a bit where we went to Chapters and bought a couple of Christmas gifts and then we spent some time fighting some massive waves at the beach before heading back to the cabin for a nice fire.  Today we spent fixing some things and then taking Mark’s BB gun and our Airsoft pistols out for some target practice.

Mark’s BB gun shoots very straight while our Airsoft pistols aren’t nearly so accurate. 

When we weren’t swimming or shooting at things, we spent a lot of time hauling water for our four new green ash trees that we planted this spring.  They are doing really well and now the challenge will be protecting them from the deer that tend to eat everything at the lake.

We haven’t been up there that much.  My depression came back with a vengeance this summer and I pretty much killed some pretty great trips because of it.  It moved from a severe depressive disorder to a bi-polar and part of that was a significant medication change.  The new medication I am on is apparently extremely dangerous which means that I had to be weaned off the old stuff and then slowly introduced to this new stuff and then get examined every week for side effects.  It also meant that it took me a long time to get up to the dosage that I need to function with.  In the end I had worsening depression and was essentially off my medications.  It has not been a fun time.

Jordon was wonderful (if not beaten down by it) and helped me through a lot of situations that were causing me problems.  While he helped me pull it together sometimes, there was a lot of times he couldn’t do anything to help me except to clean up the chaos; kind of like most summers.  As Mark has gotten older, it has taken a bigger toll on him.  He has a propensity towards the same kind of depression I had as a kid and my depression affects him.  It isn’t fun to see your mother live like this.  I saw my father struggle with depression and it affected me.  Several friends have shared their stories of seeing a parent deal with the same stuff.

This weekend however things came together.  Jordon kind of willed it to happen.  He kept me focused on what he wanted me to do and I got it done.  It was a busy weekend for him with The Lighthouse opening up a new tower and the Escape with Ford event but we pulled it together and I am happy that it turned out well.